“Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained” Marie Curie.
I’ve been really rubbish with this blog lately, and it’s for a few reasons; I’ve been crazy busy at work, I honestly didn’t know what to write about and really just generally being a lazy so and so! But, I decided it was high time to pop some of my thoughts into writing again, so here goes.
One of the things I’m regularly told by my work and my friends and family is that I’m negative. I always have been. I’m that girl that sees the glass as half empty. It’s for a number of reasons really, but I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately and I think I’ve finally established the main reason why. Protection. I’m terrified of being hurt, let down and failing, so if I’m negative about things then that will never happen; I’ve always said expect nothing and you’ll never been dissapointed.
One thing my boss always says to me is that I have no confidence in myself. It’s so true; I can write paragraphs about things I’m rubbish at but I’ll struggle to tell you anything I’m good at. It’s something I’m working really hard to change, and slowly I’ll get there, but it’s a long road.
I think the scary thing with this is that deep down no one ever really wants to compliment themselves, you don’t want anyone to think you’re a big headed twat. But as Justin Bieber would say; you should love yourself. I can’t believe I just quoted JB…!! But he’s right. You can’t expect to be a positive person when you can’t even see positive in yourself. And how can I ever expect someone to love me if I don’t even like myself?!